Today we segment our column reports where we are making room for those who have Asperger’s Syndrome in their lives so they can share their life experiences dealing with this disorder which is still so little known by society as a whole.
It is always worth remembering that nowadays Asperger syndrome is classified as the lightest degree of Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD), their main characteristics are due to difficulties in social interaction and also some problems in coordination.
Other than that these people can lead a good next life what society sees as ‘normal’ in the account today will follow the story of a reader who asked not to be identified, but still wanted to share his story.
He is 24 years old and told us how it was to discover that what was seen by all and even by himself as ‘oddity’ was actually something caused due to a neurological disorder.
See the following report:
Talk about living with Asperger’s syndrome is somewhat complicated for me, especially because still getting used to the idea.
I was born at a time when not looking for a health care provider unless it was with a serious physical problem, there was no information available on it neurological disorders and thus I grew up as only being “weird even” (I believe it was not only I).
I’ve always been very difficult to relate to others (especially with other children), problems to say a few words (most was not that he could not speak, I just did not like the pronunciation for mole ?!) and various moods and interests that clashed ordinary people.
Still I made good friends in childhood and maintain to this day.
Adolescence (still weird) I started trying to act like the classmates and work and how everyone said that “adolescence is complicated even” easier to disguise it was not adolescent thing was my thing.
This diagnosis of “weird even” I was given in childhood and accompanied me all the teens until about four years ago, when I decided to seek professional help.
I was 20 when came the diagnosis that at first made me even worse. It was one thing to be odd (was already used to it), quite another to have a disease that it was a “mild form of autism” in the doctor’s words.
For lack of correct information I associated autism (and therefore its “light type”) to a severe, disabling problem, something that did not want ever to my life.
I refused to accept the diagnosis! Also I did not want to know anything related to treatment not believe that there was something to deal with.
Deny myself as I am made of the following months , the worst of my life, still could not understand how that was happening to me.
I knew that was not like other people, but I even had learned to pretend it was! Why could not go on like this?
Not that life was good pretending they liked to do “things normal people” while hiding who I really was, but deep down , no longer called weird and strange all the time have made that sacrifice worth it (at least I thought so).
As time went by I got better understand and accept things and now live well with all this, even in a profession that always said they did not fit me for being too “quiet and mine” (a more legal way to call me queer, that I even liked) I think I could hit the middle ground between being myself (with Asperger’s and all!) and live up to the standard expected by the people.
In another report here on the site we were told that only somo strange because we live in the world of normal. I think that deep down , everyone has to adapt to the standard world of normal, because even the most normal of normal has its peculiarities.
Life in society, I think, is a lot, a constant fit the standard without losing its unique essence.
The point is that for “normal” this adjustment requires much less change, understand why it is not like the others helped me a lot.
Reading more about Asperger’s Syndrome could better understand how I behave and what the reasons for this behavior, here I admit that at one thing to have Asperger (even before knowing he had) helped me a lot: to try to “imitate” the other people I had to watch them all the time (not that it some psycho or something was different, I guess what I mean).
All this observation enabled me to understand people and understand that the world built for them to live, may seem controversial, but understand people allowed me to see why they do not understand me.
Everyone is trying to fit into society and make it as routine and automatic mode that does not even realize, do not even realize that there are people (aspies for example) that fail to follow this social pattern so easily.
For lack of information (and always come back at that point) or even lack of interest, the vast majority do not know or want to know how is life with Asperger’s.
Not to dwell too, I believe that although some have more differences than others, whether as a result of Asperger Syndrome or not, we live together and if we accept these differences instead of trying to suppress the
We appreciate the report of our reader and perform only a small correction in his words, in his account, our reader said Asperger Syndrome or the disorders that are part of Autism is a disease, in fact they are a neurological disorder and not a disease in itself.